David Carr’s Crash: Drug Rehab Memoir Remakes the Genre

In The Night of the Gun, facts arrive unembellished from the mouths of ex-dealers and ex-lovers, from bosses and employees, from acquaintances who have nothing to gain or lose by telling Mr. Carr what they know. It adds up to a riveting, improbable story. More important, Mr. Carr has produced a work that stands to revive the excitement and thrill of reading about reporting. It’s All the President’s Men, but about a dude from Minnesota with a drug habit.

 

MR. CARR’S IS the patchy, jagged story of a tireless party animal—“a dynamo of hilarity,” in his words—beyond anyone’s control, who was tolerated and cared for most of his life by the people around him because of his irrepressible charisma and talent as a journalist. This isn’t a self-created myth, but the truth that emerges from the shared experiences of dozens of others. To them, Mr. Carr was Tom Sawyer with an eight ball in his back pocket instead of a slingshot—the archetype of the mischievous, invincible genius, born cool and fearless and unfazed by the prospect of flushing all his gifts down the toilet. Neal Cassady, the inspiration for Dean Moriarty from On the Road, was one of these, too; so was Hunter S. Thompson; and the singer from the Happy Mondays as portrayed in 24 Hour Party People.

It’s easy to see why James Frey was so eager to convince everyone he was a member of that species. Surely it was the desire to be as intriguing as them, as irresistible, that motivated him, not whatever book-deal money that supposedly tempted him to submit A Million Little Pieces to publishers as the story of his life rather than the fictional work that it was.

The direct comparison is impossible not to make—Mr. Carr actually writes at one point that the Frey scandal helped him realize that reporting an autobiography was an interesting idea—but at its heart The Night of the Gun is not a mere “answer” to Pieces or a reprimand of the publishing industry, but a hopeful project meant to affirm the power of facts over myth and uncertainty. Because Mr. Frey’s worst crime was not exaggerating his status as a badass—let him exaggerate, after all, if it means so much to him—but the dreamy notion that has taken hold since his exposure that the boundary between truth and fiction is not so material as some make it out to be.

Nan Talese, who published A Million Little Pieces and has remained a dedicated supporter of its author, believes that difference is fluid when it comes to questions of memory and memoir.

“Memoir isn’t like a Congressional report,” she said yesterday. “The whole use of the word ‘memoir’ instead of ‘nonfiction story’ indicates that what is written is the author’s memory. It would be sort of silly to say at the beginning, ‘This is what I remember, but I don’t know if it’s actually true.’”

Mr. Carr is fascinated by that “but.” For him, distinguishing truth from fiction is basically the whole point of existing in the world, even though it’s an uphill battle.

As he puts it early in the book, “Memory is an expression of hindsight as much as recollection. … To be fully cognizant of the wreckage of one’s past can be paralyzing, so we, or at least I, minimize as we go.” Recollection, he writes, “is often just self-fashioning. Some of it is reflexive, designed to bury truths that cannot be swallowed, but other ‘memories’ are just redemption myths writ small.”

We are incapable, in other words, of telling our stories truthfully because we don’t really know them—that we are powerless against our natural inclination to ignore and forget inconvenient facts so as to more fluently impose on our lives the generic, familiar narratives from which it is easiest to extract meaning. “If memory is fungible,” Mr. Carr writes, “then time is its wingman, stretching and compressing to conjure a coherent story.”

Mr. Carr has done his best to protect his life story from the clichés that had eclipsed its true course in his memory. And while, in spite of his rigor, some uncertainty inevitably remains, getting the facts went a long way. Gather enough of them, and you’re closer to the truth than you were, is the point. Mr. Carr’s book affirms, not a moment too soon, that this is worth something.

lneyfakh@observer.com

 

Comments

  1. Kevin A says:

    hmm very interesting. I have read this memoir and I am still not quite sure what is the point of this book. Carr seems to be off topic alot and comes off to me as a way of bragging. is it bragging or informative, I’m not sure.. Also would all his ex-dealers, old lovers, and all these past relationships, in which they all used as well, be a reliable source? Carr himself made a point clear about memory, how we remember what we want to remember.